So these past months have been very overwhelming for me. I feel like I have been wanting to draw today and almost everyday since I have started school back up again. However it hasn't really been going well since I haven't drawn anything because of school. I'm getting a Science degree so I can get into nursing eventually. I'll probably go to Metro in Denver and CCD (Community College of Denver). I just feel like I'm tugging myself in a different direction then I want to go in. I love helping people and it would be a good match for me, including that the pay would be good too and would help financially in the future. But I want to keep on doing art, its very relaxing and it makes me feel better about myself, in a weird way or another, like accomplishment. I'm falling behind in school work also, I just can't concentrate with everything going on in my life at the moment. I feel like everything is tugging me and I can't get time to do things that I want. Kyle bought me this new 'Monster' anime book on how to draw and color females. I love to draw people and I hope to one day master how to draw them realistically and create my own style with that. I think I have created my own style in anime though so that is good. I really miss my friends too but it just seems like most of them have moved on so I don't really know what to do there. I also feel that I am wasting this subscription that I paid for on here, I bought so that I would be more inclined to do artwork and more motivated. I also bought just to see what the real big difference was. I think I would feel better about it if I earned it in some way that someone would be like,'Oh look at the artwork she does. She is such a great artist and inspiration to me, she definitely deserves a subscription.' Of course I wouldn't think that would be the case word for word. But it would be a great eye opener to me. I just hope if I practice a bit more then that will happen. That would sure feel amazing.
Also note to self I need to get to the gym more and work out. I can't waste my membership that my parents paid for. I need to get in shape.
All in all I am trying my best and I hope that is all that matters in the end.

So I have recently updated my account by buying a 3 month account to see if there is a difference or not between the two.

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Edit:
I don't really think my art is good enough at this point to have a subscription but I shall try my best. I think it will be mainly photomanipulations with a hint of photography with a pinch of classic anime art (since thats the best I can draw). I don't really have a lot of time to do art but I think I can handle doing one a day or week. College sucks your life out and its not good to do so but we all have to get a career and stop working at the mall.

This is how I woke up this morning: